It tells a story I’ve found impossible to explain so well.
I’ve gotten to the other side of my radical openness, so I don’t want to share all details in my experiences. As my honest openness has already cleared those fences and none are useful to continue dreading on about.
However, those things I first couldn’t say were the result of truths others needed me to stay silent on.
When that broke me into pieces, I eventually practiced the openness by being the opposite really.
Unable to speak openly while in certain rooms. Let me standing in mine fields, just waiting for me to disarm every comment being spoken about any disparate thing.
Instead of hiding with shades, I used headphones and singing. To just look preoccupied enough to keep people distant rather than spend that day after oversharing going incognito.
It developed an entirely secondary set of truth I needed to remain silent on. To the point I eventually started throwing truths scattered in barrages of half truths and inverted suspicions about those forcing my silence.
My openness finally reached the sunlight after acting out enough finally got those with ability to hear me to finally listen.
The process isn’t complete yet, but I’m no longer required to just say the things to anyone who seemed necessary to fill in the details to. That led to constant runaway speech scenarios, and ideas people were suppressing my truth.
The process is over the other side though. My truths are where they need to be, meaning all those who don’t know or accept them, aren’t important enough to know them anyway.
So who cares what they’re going around saying.
Great timing though. I just hit the reset on this recently and I wouldn’t expect to be more secure at did point than I already am.
Thank you for the article.
BTW that RDS cap is real. But for me goes away the second I know someone.
When I know someone and there are no hidden truth on my mind. I am not sure rejection can even be felt. I simply find the logical evaluation in as an objective approach as possible, in finding reason why I’m not selected.
Example:
“You didn’t get the job”
That’s okay because the position was filled with the candidate they needed. I’ll find the next (proper) one.
Wow, thank you for sharing this so openly. I can really feel the journey you’ve been through - the tension between silence, oversharing, and eventually finding a grounded place with your truth. What you describe about headphones, singing, and creating ways to hold your own energy in certain rooms is so vivid - and it speaks to how radical honesty isn’t just about blurting everything out, but about discerning where and how our truths are safe to land.
I love how you frame reaching “the other side” of openness, where you no longer feel compelled to explain yourself to everyone. That feels like such a powerful shift - from defending or disarming, to simply being.
Grateful you took the time to articulate this here - it adds another layer to the conversation.
This more than resonates.
It tells a story I’ve found impossible to explain so well.
I’ve gotten to the other side of my radical openness, so I don’t want to share all details in my experiences. As my honest openness has already cleared those fences and none are useful to continue dreading on about.
However, those things I first couldn’t say were the result of truths others needed me to stay silent on.
When that broke me into pieces, I eventually practiced the openness by being the opposite really.
Unable to speak openly while in certain rooms. Let me standing in mine fields, just waiting for me to disarm every comment being spoken about any disparate thing.
Instead of hiding with shades, I used headphones and singing. To just look preoccupied enough to keep people distant rather than spend that day after oversharing going incognito.
It developed an entirely secondary set of truth I needed to remain silent on. To the point I eventually started throwing truths scattered in barrages of half truths and inverted suspicions about those forcing my silence.
My openness finally reached the sunlight after acting out enough finally got those with ability to hear me to finally listen.
The process isn’t complete yet, but I’m no longer required to just say the things to anyone who seemed necessary to fill in the details to. That led to constant runaway speech scenarios, and ideas people were suppressing my truth.
The process is over the other side though. My truths are where they need to be, meaning all those who don’t know or accept them, aren’t important enough to know them anyway.
So who cares what they’re going around saying.
Great timing though. I just hit the reset on this recently and I wouldn’t expect to be more secure at did point than I already am.
Thank you for the article.
BTW that RDS cap is real. But for me goes away the second I know someone.
When I know someone and there are no hidden truth on my mind. I am not sure rejection can even be felt. I simply find the logical evaluation in as an objective approach as possible, in finding reason why I’m not selected.
Example:
“You didn’t get the job”
That’s okay because the position was filled with the candidate they needed. I’ll find the next (proper) one.
Wow, thank you for sharing this so openly. I can really feel the journey you’ve been through - the tension between silence, oversharing, and eventually finding a grounded place with your truth. What you describe about headphones, singing, and creating ways to hold your own energy in certain rooms is so vivid - and it speaks to how radical honesty isn’t just about blurting everything out, but about discerning where and how our truths are safe to land.
I love how you frame reaching “the other side” of openness, where you no longer feel compelled to explain yourself to everyone. That feels like such a powerful shift - from defending or disarming, to simply being.
Grateful you took the time to articulate this here - it adds another layer to the conversation.
“Discerning where they are safe to land “
Yeah you nailed it on the head here